Hi rokahlir: Honestly, there is so much extraordinary advice in prior threads, that I’d say to read threads in this forum, going back several pages. No one on this board can help with a “jumbled mind”, but perhaps reading through 10 pages or so of similar advice will aid you in focusing. By the way, none of this is said with snark; I’ve just seen this topic pop up over and over again and read incredible advice from the serious off grid folks that bears reading.
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